Internship Diaries: Part 6 Nearing the end..

Hey guys...so finally we are nearing towards the end of our internship. some of us had a good time and some not. seems the freshers had got an experience of the corporate world. all in all, the thing is that we would soon be meeting each other and bas be the div E we are known for. so anyways, the other day, one of my friends said that the part 5 didnt seemed interesting to him and was too obvious. there wasnt enough originality in the note. but then i was like common, m just trying to share some thoughts that i came across. moreover they are some of the mistakes that gave me realizations about how the issue should have been tackled. m not here to share my frustration/jealousy/ego whatever u say that.. :P but yeah, this time around i would like to share what i need badly..

as always has being the case, i have taken my friend's criticism seriously and have started putting some efforts on losing some flabs here and there. so for that, i go juhu beach every evening after office for a walk and 'some' jogging. i have realized that it is an awesome experience and why there are people who are following the same routine for more than 20 years (yes its true...have met them). so there i was on evening strolling around on the beach with awesome wind blowing around and ofcourse the chicks out there are awesome too... ;) ahh...m going out of track. ok...so u know apart from our summers, the kid's summers are on too. yeah their vacations. in the evening when the sun was quite strong, there were herds and herds of crowd at the beach. children bathing in the sea water, their mommies sitting by the shore and keeping an eye on them, some kids making sand castles, some flying balloons, older ones playing cricket/football and like the whole atmosphere was so lively. there was pure innocence all around as they were not worried about their results, summers, placements, friend/girlfriend issues i mean nothing at all. they just lived by their dreams unknown and i must say unworried of the future.

i envied those kids. i too wanted NOT to care about anything. i too wanted to to play in the sea water without caring about the sewage waste visible on the shore. i too wanted to make sand castles and want to create canals to make the sea water flow. then while walking, i started thinking where has it lost...? the innocence/carefree nature/fun etc etc...where have everything gone. have i got myself so much tangled in the all the worldly issues around me that i have changed myself from what i was...?? how can one change himself/herself so much...?? big question right...too big to comprehend our present situation. i think that there are two sides of a person. one white, which is pristine/pure and another one black, dark as in competitive/jealous/treacherous. when one is born, the person is totally white and as time passes, the black side emerges and it seems that only a few can manage to keep the black side at bay. i thought i was always successful in doing that. but time and again, some or the other event makes me realize that i have failed. i have allowed all these evils to seep in me knowingly/unknowingly.

so what next..? how to go back to square 1..? frankly, i dont know how. yes, i am trying my best to figure it out. i badly need to..!! at times i feel that enough of this bull shit wherein we are fighting among ourselves for trivial matters and forgetting the good times we all had shared. i seriously wanna try to be who i was before...after all as said my master Shifu in Kungfu Panda II, 'If you have inner peace, anything is possible' and i am on my way of finding that...